At the beginning of last year, I wrote about intentions. Intentions aren’t like the typical new year’s resolutions. They aren’t goals to reach, but are more about the journey to get there. I like to think of intentions as the “flavour” we want to give our lives.
The start of a new year is always a great time to set new intentions. I think of it this way: when at the end of the year, I want to look back at it and use which words to sum it up? I pick no more than three to keep things simple.
My three words
Last year, I chose: fun, faith and feistiness. I wanted to have more fun with my training, let go of outcomes more and approach my goals and life with more courage.
While my year didn’t quite turn out like I had in mind when I set them, I still showed a lot of faith and feistiness. Year 2018 was one of major changes for me. Some were really difficult. It took a lot of faith for me to make them and trust that they will be for the best.
While change isn’t easy for anyone, it can be even trickier for someone who, like me, has anxiety issues. I was too embarrassed to talk much about it at the time, but I ended up having panic attacks early last year. One time, I even had to walk back home from a run. I struggled and even had to miss a race.
On a more positive note though, it forced me to work on this more than ever before. With some help, I decided to be brave and trained in spite of the anxiety. I was determined not to let it win. It was not going to take my running from me! And, after having some success with my runs, it encouraged me to tackle it in other areas of my life (where I’m proud to say I really kicked some butt!). This all took courage and this is how I showed feistiness this past year.
2019 Intentions: Fun, fun and more fun!
The only word I can’t say represented year 2018 for me is “fun”. It was a difficult year with tough decisions, (too) many changes and a lot of losses to mourn. But, I think it has put me in a great place to start the new year!
For that reason, “fun” is the only word I choose for 2019. I need to give this one another shot! I’ll use it to remind myself to not take life – and especially my training – so seriously! If I’m not enjoying the process, then what’s the point of reaching my goals?
Having fun doesn’t have to mean that I can’t compete or try to get faster. It means I have to reconnect with the things that I like about running. Training with others is something I always had a lot of fun doing. So, to kick things off, I’ve joined a new (fast!) running group. The fun starts at the track tonight!
What will your intentions be for the new year? How will you make them happen?
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